It was bad. Real bad. Thoughts of hanging up my running shoes for good kind of bad. And that was only three miles in.
It’s all mental. I know it’s mental, but knowing it and being able to snap myself out of a funk are two completely different things. A half hour into my 10 mile run on Sunday I was thinking of calling my husband to come and get me. I was wondering if I could get my money back for the marathon this October. I was wondering why the hell I signed up for any of this. The kicker was that I was fine. Nothing hurt, the weather was perfect, I wasn’t even pushing myself, but the only thought running through my head was, “I’m miserable”. And it was on repeat.
By mile 5 I was feeling a little better. I’d planned and out and back so I was coming up on my turn-around. At 5.5 I ate a few bites of a Fiber One bar and that helped too. Mile 8 my right ankle started to feel stiff, but I was entering my home territory… there’s my grocery store on the left, and that awesome Thai place just ahead. Familiar landmarks make it easier somehow; nothing quite like coming home right?
Miles 9 and 10 were my fastest. I felt good and strong. I didn’t collapse as soon as I walked in the door like I had imagined I would in my head. Instead I made myself a green monster, stretched, took a shower and then a 30 minute nap.
If there’s anything I learned from this rotten experience it is that I am my own worst enemy. And that some tunes would have likely been a good distraction. A few bars of Gonna Fly Now (aka the Rocky theme song) probably would have done the trick. I haven’t run with my iPod in a few weeks. Ever since I got my Garmin actually – I guess I can only wrap my head around one electronic device at a time?
Speaking of Mr. Garmin, I was all prepared to give you the review of the 405 that I promised a few weeks back. It was going to be a pretty decent review too. Too bad he won’t turn on. Any tips?
Honestly though, I love this little guy. He’s completely changed the way I think about my running and the way I train. I never realized before how much my speed varies between a quick three-miler (I average about a 9:30 pace) and a long run (Sunday’s was an average of 11:04). It was my first double-digit run of the season so I took it really slow, maybe too slow. I was afraid of tiring myself out early in the game, but knowing I felt good in those last few miles (pace closer to 10:30) helps me to I know I can pick it up for next weekend. I feel I should defend my time a bit here and note that Baltimore county is exceptionally hilly. I feel valid saying this as I grew up 1.5 hours outside of San Francisco, aka the hilliest of hilly locales and thus, I know my hills. It’s rough driving up some of these hills, let alone running them. Ok, back to the Garmin…
My only qualms about the 405 are:
It’s HUGE on my wrist. I have to wear a sweat band wrapped underneath of it to keep it in place. They really ought to make the thing adjustable or in various sizes. Who came up with this one-size-fits-all gimmick anyway? It fits my husband who is 6’2″ and has 100lbs on me perfectly, but that doesn’t really help me much now does it?
I can’t figure out how to set the display screen. I’ve gone in and set all my data fields, but I still feel like it shows me whatever it wants to. Sometimes it displays two fields, sometimes one. Sometimes it shows me how far I’ve gone, sometimes how far I have to go. As I manically press buttons mid-gallop I am sometimes successful in finding the display I’m looking for. Sometimes not. I’ve yet to determine if this is user error or not, so I won’t hold this against the watch, but I will go as far as to say that if it is user error, it’s not a very user friendly interface, because I’m not altogether that dense. Really… I’m not.**
The blank screen. What gives? Is there really not a reset button on this thing? I wish I could tell if it was not charging, or charging but not turning on. At least then I would know if it was the power cord or not. Sad panda. 😦
**UPDATE: After contacting the folks at Garmin they offered to fully overhaul my 405. I packaged Mr. Garmin up and shiped him off. A week later he was returned to me better than ever. I am now able to choose my display settings without difficulty and can say with certainty that my experience with the 405 was atypical as the device had a few glitches. After two months of use, I’ve had yet to experience any further issues with the display and/or settings. Aside from the fact that the watch is still HUGE on my wrist, requiring me to wear a sweatband underneath to keep it in place, I’m really pleased with the product and the service.
Ok, on to the highlights (I know, I’m a total Debbie Downer today. It’s safe to say it’s work stress, but we won’t get into all of that). Typically, I’m completely drained of any and all energy after a long run. Even if I load up on protein afterward, I’m usually pretty useless for the rest of the day. Now, I’m not saying I had tons of energy after my nap yesterday, but I did make it to my husband’s football game and spent three hours on the field socializing and whatnot. I even lasted through a few TV dramas when we got back to the house. And then I slept. For ten hours. But that’s still worlds better than I can usually say for myself. Go me! And, even better? I don’t have an inkling of pain today!! Crazy! I wonder how much of that I can contribute to our new super-fantasic Sleep Number bed?
If only I had as good of a time ON my run, as I have AFTER it…. Well, there’s always next weekend’s 10 miler!
When your brain chatter gets you down, what do you do to snap out of it?